wanWan

ah...
I have told myself not to think negative...
not to have any negative thought...
But if i ignore this negative feeling, i'll be the most selfish person for myself...
If i ignore this complicated thought, i'll be the most selfish person for myself...
I cant tell you my feeling...
You will only think that it's useless to think sth like that...
I've never be winning for so long...
I keep on losing...
But im not a failure...
Because i keep on trying...
The first time i join the furniture competition...
I never win anything but I know i'm the best...
because i really put my heart in it...
Today, is my first time throwing basketball with you...
in pyramid...
outside CF...
we never hit target...
but i feel so happy...
because i did try my best...
I enjoy being with you...
but sth tells me that i cannot be so selfish...
Today...
I really enjoy ICE AGE3 with you...
but when I see those happy family (the iceAge family)...
I look at you in your arm...
I feel that you deserve better...
My heart is squeezing in pain...
If it's time to let go, i'll...
I cannot be so selfish right?
Why is it so hard for me when it's so easy for almost everyone?
You certainly deserve better don't you?...
I really that care...